Monday, February 22, 2010 ♥
I turn to you.. blog. @ 1:13 AM
Is this the only way I can actually tell you how I really feel?
December till now, I've never given up anything towards you. I stop texting you, stop telling you anything, but why? Because now, I'm afraid. I never wanted you to leave. Months ago, we were the happiest thing that plant Earth ever witnessed. Months later, at least, I'm the saddest thing that earth ever saw. Whatever we did, we did it with what we had for each other, and that's love. You gave me the world, and you made the world crumble down on me.
You knew from the very start that I changed everything for you. I just wanted to show you I wanted to be part of you. I did what people say was stupid, but I don't regret it. I touched cigarettes because of you, I even slept at the staircase just to wait for you. I just love you.
You love me, you admitted it. You admitted you treated me like your own boyfriend. But why? Till today, I never understood. That Monday, we met. I was sick. I turned up, and I gave you a hell of an attitude. You know why? I tried to put up a strong front, I tried to show you how strong I was. But you still manage to find a loophole in it. You saw my sadness, didn't you? I seek for your forgiveness, but you treat me like you didn't know me at all.
You weren't my dream girl, but I just loved you. I was always a call away, a text away. One call, one text, I can make my way down to Bedok.
Daphne, why?
I have never given up anything, any hope. You made this blog for me, and I'll make you read me now. Yes, I'm sad. In fact, yes, you're right. I've changed. I've changed ever since you left me. I'm never the xuanyou that smiled to you everyday. You wanted to see my smile right? Now, I don't know how to smile.
I'm waiting, waiting for the day to come. (: watashi wa honto daisukii na. Aishiteru.
